Throughout lockdown I’ve had a lot of time to slow everything down, which I think is something we all need every once in a while. I’m quite an impatient person at times so I usually feel obliged to rush through things, especially long and mundane tasks, and having this time to pause for a moment has really helped. I am still working full-time, but as I can’t go out or do much otherwise I have had much more time to think over things and slow down.
Even as I write, I sometimes feel myself trying to get it over with as quickly as possible so I can move on to the next thing or get it finished. I love writing and I genuinely enjoy the process, so I have no idea why I act like I don’t sometimes.
The truth is, I’m so scared of feeling like I’m wasting time. I rush through things, only to sit on my phone and achieve nothing for an hour. That’s an hour where I could have accomplished many tasks.
So, as I was saying before I started rambling on, I’ve been slowing things down a lot more, and feeling more creative and enjoying life in a different way because of it.
Here’s what I’m appreciating recently.
When I started to have therapy again my therapist recommended that I start a journal. And I did… for about three weeks. Then I trailed off because life got in the way and I never got back to it properly. On the odd occasion I have opened my journal, written a paragraph and then forgotten about it again. So, I decided to convert my journal into a ‘personal notebook’ where I can write my ideas and thoughts down candidly as I go. Whether it’s little inspirational thoughts, important quotes, book suggestions, blog post ideas or vlog topics, it’ll be written in there. Of course I can do the usual journaling in there too, it’s just a bit more of a mix and it’s more inspiring too.
On the topic of writing, I recently purchased a fountain pen (no, I’m not in primary school!) and it has forced me to be slow and take my time when I’m hand writing. I just can’t do that when I’m typing. Everything is rush, rush, rush, which isn’t so bad when you’re brainstorming or trying to get something done, but when I want a moment to reflect and perhaps run with a few ideas, my fountain pen is the one and I find I’m enjoying the process.
It’s not actually a shock when I think about it, but vlogging has caused me to consider things a little bit more. Like photography, it makes you think about the smaller details of life. Like opening the door and pushing the door handle down, or preparing your tea leaves to make a green tea, or cutting up some fruit — usually I would do these things without thinking but blogging has got me doing things more intently because as I film, everything has to be considered. Little things that I do I have now started to blog about, so paying attention to this has been a natural process for me.
Grooming and Body Care
Lockdown has given me more time to focus on my body too. When we first went into lockdown I was wearing no makeup at all and not washing my hair for days and days, but that had me feeling low and I just wasn’t feeling myself when I looked in the mirror. Because of this, I started doing the opposite of that and making myself feel nice with some grooming and body care.
Mainly, I’ve been keeping on top of my fake tan, meaning that my body has to be hair free for the most part, and always exfoliated and moisturised. I dyed my eyebrows for the first time too and waxed them myself because I hated how they were so grown out (sorry to Beth my beauty tech – you can fix them soon!) My skincare routine has also improved and I’ve been doing more masks and cleanses than usual. My next step is to work more on looking after my hair because that is totally neglected – please send me your haircare tips!
But anyway, I just wanted to shine a light on some of the positives that lockdown has brought. Even though as a country we’re going through something uncertain and unsettling, we do as the British do and find something positive to pull us through in the end! Take care everyone and let me know how you’re all doing over on Insta! x